Living on the Edge

Living life on the edge means you’re continually at the point where something may begin, or not begin, depending on your choices.

That’s where I’m at.  Right now.

I’m looking around, waiting, praying that God will guide me into choosing the right edges to step onto next.  It’s easy to rush ahead without seeking God’s guidance and I promise you, it’s much more comfortable to stay right here where I’m at.

But God never called me to be comfortable, right?  The truth is, I’ve made mistakes before.  I’ve endured the consequences of my poor choices and the hard falls that came because of those choices.  They make me a little more than timid about being on the edge.  Those past failures make me want to hide in the deepest darkest of the mountain, alone and having my own pity party.

God has forgiven me of those mistakes and I feel that it’s time to move on.  God wants me out there on the edge watching and waiting for new opportunities to glorify Him.  I want to live life with the constant awareness of the opportunities around me.  Opportunities to serve others, to minister, and sometimes just to listen.  I want to be watching with a mind-set that is expecting marvelous possibilities to appear at any moment.

Can you relate?  I have a decision weighing on my mind and it’s all I can think about.  I’m trying to decide whether I should attempt something and possibly fail or if I should not even try and live with regret.  Without spilling the beans, I can say that this is a big decision and I would love your prayers.  It’s a God-sized dream, if you will.  It’s BIG.  Either God will bless it and it will succeed wildly or it will fail and I’ll be humiliated.  Because I’ve prayed about this and I’ve had the desire to do this for a while I’m leaning towards making the leap.  I’ll keep  you updated!

Living on the edge is far from comfortable but I think it’s a place where we realize we’re not the ones in control.  When we surrender ourselves and look to God for direction, He’ll guide us.  When we feel uneasy about stepping into the unknown, we must remember that He is always there with us.  That’s why the edge is a great place to be.